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Kenji….. Devin…… Laurens….. Ted….. im sorry. No matter what you may think, I still love you.
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for the drama. i really hate this; one more reason for me to leave right? keep bringing back the drama. anyways so i just stopped talking to her cause she had to go to bed. im getting off now too and will continue talking to her tommarow and hopefully this'll be over. if she finally does see that its for the best and says goodbye too, know that i love you all and da has change my life in every way possible. again, im sorry, and thank you all stay strong

and i might leave da, not sure yet. its just that da and this person are interwined for me; everytime i get on da i think of her and i think its gonna be impossible for me to be here while not talking to her yunno. plz dont ask who she is or what's going on im trying to do what's best for her and myself. i know i prommised a while back on my old account that i wouldnt write any more emotional journals but here we are again. now it all depends on this talk; if im successful at saying goodbye then this is gonna be the last journal - or maybe i'll write a proper journal and thank everyone by name for everrything they've done for me. i love you all

yep went to the district court and now its legalized, Josephine A. Mustafa c: did other stuff too but this was the best part. let's see today cathy and i had breakfast at ihop then later we went and exchanged the kuwaiti money I had in my purse to US money. though for me i just call it transition money lol. now im gonna go look for gender therapists so i could start meeting with them and, hopefully, get started on HRT soon. oh and as of today i've been here a week, time flies really fast. and also today was the first time i use the ladies room in public c: yay for cathy cx shes trying to teach me now to not cover my face when speaking (i usually have at least one hand covering my mouth or my cheek cause im reaaaally not comfortable with ppl seeing my stupid facial hair - oh and speakng about hair i got my chest waxed, sadly they dont do facial hair xC -- it took us a while to find the spa lol it was so well hidden we walked right passed it and kept walking till the 17th avenue (we parked on the ninth and it was on the tenth) oh and before i go again im sooooo sorry for late replies and not being on as much - i always check my messages as soon as i get home and try to reply as much as i can, so sorry about that. anyways enough about me how've you been c: